regeneration

Why do I still blame myself? He’s the one who went weird and won’t talk to me any more, and I still think ‘if I had only’, all day long.

I have to remember, though, that friends who abandon friends…aren’t real friends.

If you have an offense, give the other person a chance to explain. Friends will forgive an offense, whether real or imagined, after a good explanation and apology.

If you cut someone off and don’t give them the courtesy of explaining what offended you, don’t give them the chance to apologize, then you’re not a friend.

But it still hurts. He was kind of like a father to me, and now I feel like I’ve been kicked to the curb as an orphan. I need to shake the dust off my feet and get over it, I know. But it still hurts.

I can imagine him telling all his friends…whatever he would say…and it’s not true. But since he won’t contact me, I can’t correct anything.

Oh well, maybe I’m feeling something of what Jesus felt back then when all of his friends betrayed him and denied that they even knew him? At least I don’t have to have my hands and feet nailed to a cross. Hurt feelings heal easier than permanent holes in your hands and feet.